April 9th

Weight Loss Meme: Day 5 & 6

Day Five: Why do you really want to lose this weight? Are you doing it for you?

Day Six: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

To be honest? I want to lose this weight because I hope that if I do, I’ll look more like a boy.

I talk about this a bit in my introduction post. Essentially: most of the fat that I carry, I carry around my hips, butt, and thighs, giving me an unmistakably female fat pattern that I feel will always keep me from passing as male. I’m fairly tall and have an angular-enough face that I can often pass otherwise, but my wide hips are a dead giveaway.

I don’t know why I want to be seen as male so much. I’m still working to figure it out. But lessening the obviousness of my feminine fat pattern, I think, will do wonders for my ability to present as a boy, so the weight is very worth losing.

Day Six: Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

I have a tendency to eat my feelings from time to time and to eat more when I’m stressed and/or busy; and if I start eating real junk, I tend to eat a lot of it at once. In that respect, I guess that I do binge sometimes. That said, though, I’ve never binged with the intention of purging later; I don’t think that I could ever intentionally make myself vomit.

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